Mental Brick Wall

 

In the past One year plus, I set out to lose 80kg (so help me God)

Then I lost half of it...

Before hitting a brick wall

I attribute my set back of 8kg on completely losing my head

I cannot tell you how many times over the course of the past 3 or more months, I have tried to get back “on track”

I have tried so many times that it became exhausting, depressing, and downright ANNOYING that I could not seem to make it stick.

I felt as if I was right back to where I used to be.  Waking up with clear resolve and utterly failing before 9 am.

Losing 2kg today and adding it the next week.

Looking back, I have to search for what happened and what led me down into the pit again.

It is only in analyzing the trail of setbacks  that we can work our way backwards to see where we went astray.

And then move forward in an effort to avoid those same brick wall!

So after much analysis, I’ve identified my top mental brick walls  I’ve encountered along the way that caused me to backslide.

Here we go…

 

 

 

16 weeks pregnant

 

 

Am 16 weeks pregnant!

Tell me do I look it or I just look fat! :(

Am so sad right now cos my tummy isnt showing it

But I am just looking round.

But am happy anyways lol

I have my strength back!

I can now walk and I feel good

Though sometimes tired

But i guess it comes with big belle, lol

12 weeks already

So I have been seeing my doctor regularly

Its 12 weeks only but it feels like 38 weeks

I feel really sleepy allllllllllllll the time

I sleep at any convenient place or time

And its so annoying since my kids are at the stage that they need to be looked after.

I love being pregnant, but I love it when am showing

So now people see me and i could from their eyes, saying "isn't she supposed to be losing weight"

And I cannot just walk up to everyone and say "hi, am pregnant but you cant actually see it"

Its so frustrating.

I tried to push myself to walk this week

I notice i don't sweat that much, guess is the water retention thingy

And i did some stretches

Thats all I could do.

I have been eating basically salads, fruits and fish

Yet am adding... I feel damned.

Well I have already put on 2kg.

Its well shaa.

After this baby I will lock up,

Since I know that my body is touch and follow :D

 

It must end in praise

We are Pregnant!

We found out some weeks ago that we are pregnant!

It wasnt planned but we are glad, I have always wanted to have all my kids before 30,

Maybe this is God's way of answering me, My last prayer now is that I hope its a girl!

Not like I don't like boys, Hey! i have two, but i will really love to have a girl.

I wont lie to you, I was really scared when I knew I was expecting

I felt all my hardwork have gone down the drain.

I wondered if i would ever recover.

The first two days was war, I was battling with myself.

But then, I prayed to God and he reminded me that its his doing and its marvelous to our eyes!

Well, I have added some weight like 1.5kg

My First trimester has been a drag

I get tired so easily

I feel like sleeping all the time.

Never had these symptoms with my first two so am assuming its a girl :)

But at the end of the day all pregnancies arent the same.

I will keep you guys updated.

Really, please pray for me.