My motivation - Winning "Self"

So people keep asking me why do i choose to go on such liquid diet and if this will affect my health and all, so i thought i should write about my reasons for choosing this diet and why i have decided to take this route.

Please am not writing to be criticised or praised, am doing this for me...

Am an emotional person when it comes to my weight, i refuse to talk about it or let it weigh me down thus i try to do all those things lekpa (skinny) people do. I always strive to be the best in what i do and i never belive no is an answer, but for some reason, which still beats me is that i cannot conquer "myself", am like a prisoner in my skin eating what my flesh wants and the way it wants it even when am least hungry...
This may sound weird to some people but i know how bad i feel after taking that chocolate or eating that pizza. I watched myself move dress sizes continously and still felt helpless, and the insults and passing comments about my weight became so much but i chose to ignore.
I have tried alot of stuffs in the past... i have guard my teeth (which i personnally removed as the thoughts of not eating was just unbearable). I have tried to get a personal trainer ( i just bullied them no matter how hard they try), I hate jogging because it leaves me short of breathe but i try walking. But the main issue i have is my thought pattern towards food. I crave for food all the time!


I did not need anyone to tell me i needed an intervention, First will be to change my thought pattern towards food. I was determined to start this diet after i saw my Friend (who is my consultant now) loose so much weight on the diet, i knew her well, and seeing her go from a size 24 to a size 14 in weeks was amazing! and i said to myself hey! Nelly you can do this, its gonna be hard but you could do it.
So i told her i was interested in what she did and that am tired of being the "fat Nelly" and she was glad i came to her.
She has so far been encouraging and i thank God for her.

Left is my friend in a dress size 14 and her on the right is she, a dress size 24

Today, i have accepted that i am big and i am working towards loosing weight. I have so far had so many encouragments from people when they know am on a diet. Though am not showing to that extent where one will see me and say wow!!!! Nelly you have lost some weight (which is my goal) but i have seen alot difference in me. I am much smarter and i am not always short of breathe after taking a few walks.
I see food but am not hungry neither am i drawn towards it, i keep telling myself how this story has to end in praise and the Glory of God manifested in my life as i have conquered "self".
I want to be healthy, fit and happy, i want a day i will stop snoring or a day i can walk into a bank and it doesnt say "two people are not allowed at the same time" this maybe funny to you but they are serious issues to me.
Am in week 3 my weigh in is on saturday, i still have like 10 weeks to acheive my first goal of loosing 30kg.
Though i have lost 9kg in 2 weeks i do not want it to get to my head, am seeing results for the first time in my life and i am glad i started the cambridge Journey.

My son's birthday will be in August and i want to be a trim size mum and flaunt my brand new body, i know its acheivable and am determined to win over "self". I wont give up now its too late to be sorry for "self".
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