The looser identity

I read about the looser identity from a weight loss blogger skinnie Minnie (love her too) and was motivated to write my own version.

This is one post am not sure will come out right no matter how I phrase it so I will just let my thoughts flow.

I love being called a looser, a weight looser. Someone who has worked hard to shed some extra kilos, the more I think about it, the more i actually realise it becomes a sort of self-validation and reassurance for me than what people think of me.

When you weigh as much as I do, every moment is filled with insecurities. You think of everyone who takes a glance at you and makes a snap judgment about your weight, motivation and even will power. I have been an obese girl for a long while now and I try to work hard on my academics, as a mother, wife and work (I consider myself as a workaholic)  to compliment for my physical shortcomings.

This blog gives me a chance to show what am doing weight wise and let people know that am not ignoring the obvious neither am I lazy or stupid. Also hope am busting some myth (only thin=active and healthy). I look at my little journey so far and am proud of myself.

Take away the happiness I get from this blog and the appreciation I get from people my dear readers and you will be taking away my security blanket.
When I look at how far I have gone, though little but much as I have never done any of this in my life before, I still struggle but I will keep working hard till I achieve my goals.
But when people don't SEE how far I have gone and giggle at my big tummy, weight, fat hands or my cheating moments and they think this how I eat 24/7 , I turn to that girl just trying to be invisible.

I don't want to be invisible neither do I want to be defined by my size. Am seriously working on myself and from there I will be eating right soon,  I want to one day look back and say this is what I have accomplished and if you choose to judge the book by its cover then its your loss.